star light/ star bright/ the first star i see tonight/ except i saw a bunch of you guys/ so im going to increase my chances/ and wish on each of you/ i wish i may/ i wish i might/ have the wishes i wish tonight/ but even if its one wish/ ill be beyond happy/ i wish that i stop waking up every morning and die in my sleep/ no let me change that/ i wish that one day i will wake up without the craving to die but with a desire to live/ i wish that the love of my life can fall in love with me right now/ no wait, i am not ready for that/ instead, i wish that i start falling in love with myself/ i wish that i lose the 5 pounds i gained in the last two months/ no no thats not right/ i wish that i stop caring about how much weight i gain/ and care about how much i recover from my bulimia/ i wish that people were not so horrible/ nevermind, that is impossible/ i wish that i meet more people in my life/ and the people that do not want me to grow will leave/ i wish that i get a good job and become rich/ ah you guys are only stars you can only do so much/ so i’ll wish that one of these days i realise what i want to be and be able to pursue the dream instead/ i wish that my family was not so broken/ except that would be like wishing for a utopia/ i wish that my dad would understand his mistakes/ and my mom would learn how to walk away/ i wish that life would be kinder to me/ but it won’t be/ but i wish that i will get stronger at accepting the failures in my life/ and be able to rise each time from them/ i wish that one day i will be able to laugh without holding back/ that i will be coming home to nothing but love/ that i will always be a fighter/ and i know that every one of these wishes are fucking hard to grant/ but oh stars/ please will you just grant one of them?/ the light you possess is the only hope i’ve got//
please oh please will you grant my wish?
Posted on Tagged ancestor, angry, anoreexia, anorexia, anxiety, ashes, asian, bengali, black, blackandwhite, boy, brown, bulimia, burn, cold, crying, cute, dad, death, depressed, depression, divorce, eating disorder, family, fire, followforfollow, friend, friendship, heart, heartbreak, heartbroken, help, history, hope, hopeless, independence, indian, inspiration, kingdom, life, light, likeforlike, lonely, love, marriage, mental health, mentalhealth, mentalillness, mom, mother, movingon, past, photo, poem, poetr, poetry, poetrycommunity, poor, queen, quote, quotes, recovery, recoveryquotes, red, relationship, romantic, roots, sad, sadquotes, slam poetry, story, struggle, suicide, sunday, wordsLeave a comment