a relapse is like coincidentally seeing an old friend across the subway station/ except its not really a friend/ its more like a demon/ a demon dressed up as an angel/ you assume they love cosplay/ because they are just so good at being something they are not/ also you are not at a subway station/ you are alone/ in a dark tunnel/ in this tunnel there is no light at the end of it/ there are just walls caving in/ and a train that does not know when to stop/when you give in to the voices inside your head/ and let your monsters tie your hands back/ and blindfold you/ you feel a little giddy/ because you think/ you’re finally coming home/ you forget that you were home/ and this is just hell/ so when you end up falling on your knees and let yourself be chained to the wall/ everything you worked so hard to get away from/ comes back to you/ your mind sighs with glee/ excited that its going back to its exciting place of self destruction/ but your body is crying/ it was starting to heal before this/ the morning after the reckoning of your dark world/ all you want to do is hide/ because you are confused on what you want/ you want to be happy/ but you are the last person to know what that really is/ do you start all over and try to get better again/ or do you give your addictions another chance?//
an old friend is at the door
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